Food quickly started to become my replacement for sleep and it used it to give me fuel. This is when things started to get weird with food and my body. I began turning to food no matter what the situation or emotion was. Tired, anxious, sad, bored, excited, accomplished, fatigued.. all these emotions would lead to me food.

As I started to gain weight the feelings of shame, guilt and defeat started to sink in. For years I struggled silently, thinking I was the only person in the world who struggled with this.

In high school I was a cheerleader, a gymnast, an honor student, in a bible study group and student government.. I loved making people smile, that's why I cheered.

But perfection became my standard. In order to excel in athletics, academics, student government, volunteering and my social life I didn't have time to sleep more than 4-5 hours a night. 

I had a glimmer of hope when my mom and I attended a Beth Moore conference. A woman shared about her struggle with alcohol addiction. I was intrigued because the way she was describing her relationship with alcohol felt exactly like my relationship with food.

For the first time, I felt a little less crazy, a little less alone.. I started to think that maybe I'm not the only one.

That hope fueled me to keep seeking answers + figuring out this struggle.

I mustered up every ounce of courage I had to go to therapy and Overeaters Anonymous. I learned so much more about the emotional aspect of things but the binge eating didn’t stop.

Throughout this whole time I was succeeding in every aspect of my life but crumbling in this one aspect.

In an effort to put an end to this once and for all I decided to do a Bikini Competition. I figured this would literally force me to be on track with my diet and training which in turn will solve everything.. I seriously thought this was the answer *sigh*  Signing up for this competition was probably the worst decision I ever made.

My relationship with food went further south than it had ever been because of this decision.

I remember standing backstage at that show, lightheaded, tired, depleted.. Counting down the hours until the show was over so I could eat.

After the show, I went down a 4 month binge eating spiral. I gained more weight back than I had lost in about 4 months. I felt absolutely crazy. I had never struggled that much with my relationship with food in my life.

Now my desire to find answers was at an all time high.

I began to learn the science behind what is happening on a brain based level when we struggle with food. This is when my real healing journey began, I finally found the answers to my decade long struggle.

I realized that I wasn’t crazy, I didn’t lack willpower or self discipline and I wasn’t alone in this struggle. 

I learned that the brain activity of those who struggle with impulsive tendencies around food resembles similar activity to those who struggle with addiction.

started to evolve once I started rewiring my brain using mental techniques, mental collaboration + metacognition techniques.

When I got to the point where I no longer even felt the impulse or urge to binge I knew I was onto something incredibly effective. I felt a deep conviction to share and help other women who were struggling in the same way I was.

So I took a leap of faith, studied to become a Mind Body Eating Coach, partnered with a Licensed Professional Counselor and created the Food Freedom Online Program. 

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Today I am a living example of what it means to go from thinking about food and body struggles constantly to an effortless relationship with food and unshakeable confidence in my skin. Regardless of how long you’ve struggled, what you have previously tried, how old you are, there is a way out. There is a way to retrain your brain and navigate this struggle.

This is my signature program that teaches tangible tools + techniques to achieve an effortless relationship with food, and connects you with women from all around the world who experience these same struggles.